My life has become even more consistent on a daily basis than ever before. I am writing this at 1:30am because I tired & bored of selecting 5 tour photos for each of the 51 scenes that I plan on using to launch my new TS website. This is going to be my third attempt at having my own website, the first 2 attempts were miserable failures. Christian Does Them All was slowly making more money each month, but my webmaster didn't enjoy working harder each month to make it. My second attempt Kinky Exploits was just getting off the ground, but the guy who owned the Affiliate Program decided that fucking my ex-girlfriend was more important to him than our friendship. So, I decided to go to alone and if this doesn't work, I am giving up on having my own site.
I think it's important to note that my girlfriend owns & operates her own HUGELY successful website - Fem Dom Empire and she has been fantastic in pointing me in the right direction & keeping me focused on moving forward with it.
I am 90 percent finished with it, and just waiting for CC Bill to approve my payment processing as well as Zuzana Designs to finish with my banner and the color scheme of the site. I have already spent 1000 to CCBill and 1400 to Zuzana Designs, as well as 270 to Elevated X and 150 to Certified Hosting. This site is killing me and it's not even up yet! Yeesh.
I generally wake up around 6am. This is not so much because I want to, but mostly because we have an entire wall that is a window which is super bright as the sun comes up. Its almost impossible to sleep past 6am. That is my cue to take a leak, grab my comforter, and shuffle over to the computer. Then I check all my affilliate stats, make some Twitter posts, check my email, and figure out what my plan is for the day.
I live in Las Vegas now, which means I am further disconnected from the mainstream porn industry than ever before. I have done a total of 6 scenes in the past 5 months for other companies. But in that same time period, I have shot 51 content trade shoots for my store/site/vod company. Do I miss performing 20-25 times a month for companies like I have since 2004? No suprisingly not at all.
The adult industry has become extremely biased against current crossovers, and although I have always had the support of the agents & producers in the past, those days are long gone. Now I am lumped into the same category as everyone else, and shooting scenes has become a huge hassle. Not to mention that I am over 40 now, and this biz has become a young man's game. The next generation of male performers like Chad White, Bruce Venture, Richie Black, Brick Danger, Jessy Jones, Clover, etc. etc. is upon us.
This is my last stand in adult. I tried to fight it off for as long as I could, but I have to admit that to myself. After this incarnation of my career has ended, I will be forced to find the next chapter in my life. I hope I don't sound bitter or angry, because I am not. I am extremely happy & proud of my career in this biz.
Thanksgiving is coming up next week, which means my parents are coming to Vegas because my entire family & relatives celebrate here. Additionally, my girlfriend's mother, sister & brother are coming too! This is yet another step in solidifying to the world that we are going to be together forever. I love her more than I have ever loved anyone in my life. I wake up kissing her and I go to sleep at night doing the same thing. We have yet to get into an argument or fight, and spend each other with each other for the majority of it. We make a great team and our careers have slowly become more & more integrated with each other. I act as her production manager, I book all the girls, speak to the agents, give them the information, and tell her what flights to book. I hire the makeup artist, pick the male talent, and figure out the locations. I also act as her production assistant on set, and sometimes even perform in a scene for her as well.
I still speak to my buddy Mike on a daily basis. I still speak to Kevin, Lisa Ann, and a few others on a semi-daily basis. But other than that, I have distanced myself from everyone except to make a comment or two on twitter. And god damn it feels good. I spend more time with my friends here in Vegas that I have known for over 10 years. I see friends and acquaintances that I knew before I got into porn. I spend every day with my beautiful girlfriend. Life is so so good right now.
I know that the problems I was worried about a year ago are still in the rearview mirror. But at this point I am going to make one last attempt to earn enough money to save more money and protect my future. The best part is my girlfriend also looks to the future just like me. She has an IRA, savings, and equity account too! It's very refreshing to be with someone so responsible.
I am rambling now because its past 2am now. I am shooting 2 content scenes tomorrow with Karen Fisher and Alura Jenson so I better get some rest. Good night everyone!
