It's time to face facts, my friends, I am just not that nice a guy. As a matter of fact, I am probably closer to being a total dickhead. I have very little patience with stupid people, I am rude when people ask ridiculously dumb questions, and I tend to get really sarcastic. For example, if I am standing in line at the Subway by myself, and I order my subway, and then the girl follows up with this question, "do you have any more subs you would like?" What the fuck? Do singular people usually order 2 subs for themselves? My pet peeve in life is stupid questions. My second pet peeve is the ridiculous lies people tell about themselves. This is from living in Vegas and working in nightclubs. Boys say the stupidest shit trying to get laid and girls say the stupidest shit trying to sound important and sophisticated. The downside to my pet peeves are that in my current industry, pretty much everyone falls into these two categories. The number of horseshit, patently ridiculous lies that people spew out of their pieholes on an average set is staggering. And whereas 95 percent of other people, just THINK to themselves that they are being sold a bill of goods, while nodding their heads and then going about their business, I just don't have that ability. I tend to start asking questions.....oh two Master's Degrees? Really, well lets do the math on that one. Bachelor's Degree=4 years, Master's Degrees that you can't get concurrently=2 years each, so that's 8 years in school MINIMUM, and you are 29 and have been in the business for 5 years, then that fucking math just doesn't add up. lol - stay tuned for my upcoming book "Winning Friends and Influencing People".
Lately, my blog has started to ruffle a few feathers in the adult community. I have received at least 5 lectures from people, mostly friends, about what I say about people and what I write. Again, the purpose of my blog isn't to act as a verbal sledgehammer to beat on people, its simply the way I personally see things and how I react in certain situations. I have a very frustrating job at times, which of course is entirely my own doing, I made my bed, now I get to lie in it.
Again, please understand what I have to deal with every week. I hope that as you have read through this blog about my experiences, you can see that every week I have at least 2 scenes changed or 2 girls changed because they won't work with me. This has happened over the course of my entire career. And I am constantly being told by so many people, that it does no good to complain about it, to try to rectify it, to drop some knowledge on the girl, that I should just forget it and move on. If it was every once in a while, no problem, but twice a week, every week for years? It just sucks all of your spirit out of you, and makes you into a bitter person that doesn't trust many people. I have no regrets in this business, but I am shocked that so many people, girls and guys included, are that homophobic and that archaic in their beliefs and prejudices. That somehow, my clean AIM test is not worth as much as the next guys. I just don't fucking get it. Fuck it, lets move on.
My first scene (which of course I was running late for) was for David Lord, who was directing for Adam & Eve. David is a close friend of mine, who absolutely HATES my blog. He would much rather I be quiet and not say anything positive or negative about anyone. I am glad to have him as my friend, his advice, whether I choose to take it or not, is good for me to hear. He is currently shooting a Big Boob and Big Ass movie, and he allowed me to choose who I wanted to work with. So I chose my absolute favorite girl to work with in the business that isn't named Roxy Deville, and that's Daphne Rosen. Actually I request Daphne for pretty much every scene I am in. lol. She and I have great chemistry, I find her very attractive, and not just because of how pretty she is, but because she is a very mature woman, who treats this industry like a business, is politically active and aware (she is a diehard John Edwards supporter), and on top of all that, she does a fantastic scene. And of course, I want to marry both of her fabulous boobs. :)
The scene was very straightforward, no dialogue, just fucking with lots of boob play. We shot upstairs in a really, really, really hot room and I was sweating my ass off! We had to take 2 breaks for me to towel down and I think I gave her butt a bath while fucking her in doggy. lol. It was a good scene as always, and after the scene, I had to quickly head over to my second one. Oh wait, I also got a few shots of the lovely Aline, another of my favorites. She was doing the girl-girl scene after me.....what a gorgeous chick!
My second scene was all the way in Northridge (the first was in Hollywood), so it took me almost an hour to get from one set to the other. I was working for Bobby and a website that I am in many times, Cougars in Heat. Today was an anal scene with Totally Tabitha. We worked together previously for Wildlife about a year ago, and I love this girl. Once she heard about my blog, I think she mentioned her website about 139 times over the course of the scene. lol. She is very, very persistent (and so am I, so we get along well). Tabitha is 35, from Queens but now living in Arizona, and is just about as wild and crazy as they come (she is very, very hyper like on 15 cups of coffee hyper...lol). She pretty much does every single kind of scene imaginable, and does it with a smile on her face. Today I was a vacuum cleaner salesman trying to sell her my product......and of course cue the cheesy porn music......sex ensues. It was a fantastic scene, I was rock hard and raring to go.
Today was a great day, it really pulled me out of my rut. I was pumped up and ready to burst with energy. I grabbed a quick six inch Subway on my way home, and I was going to grab a change of clothes and hit the gym hard, when my phone rang. It was Lisa Ann, who wanted to grab a spin class together at the local gym. Sweet! Then Jonni Darkko called about getting together for a late dinner. Man, this day just keeps getting better.
Then my phone rang again. It was my parents. They were scheduled to come visit me tomorrow for a few days. They hadn't been out here before and they were excited to come. My mother then told me that my grandmother had emergency surgery on her throat to remove a cancerous growth. She was in bad shape and they were changing their reservations to fly up to Boston to be with her. Definitely not good. I canceled my evening plans and talked to my father for awhile.
Phoenix Marie came over because I had previously agreed to help her download music on her Ipod. She brought some fast food with her, thank goodness, because I didn't feel like going out. :(
After she left, Laura at Naughty America called to cancel me for my first scene tomorrow. The old double whammy............I will talk more about that tomorrow. For now, enjoy my pictures and stories and have a wonderful day.
Hope your grandmother is OK. Keep your head up!!
Posted by: bigdea0629 | April 30, 2008 at 01:06 PM